no one is ever going to take it away. and although i'm still not sure, i think that's good. you would miss out on so much. if i may recommend you one song: "farin urlaub - kein zurück". affects a certain mood but does not encourage it. hope you will like it...
hmm... "i put my head in the noose... my suicidal dream"
my advice: think about it because it brings you so much new outlook on yourself, but never do that. Thinking about death can give you incredible emotions, but death is just death... it's not emotion, and you cannot change your mind tomorrow.
I salut you for silverchair (me.. one of the biggest fans here of them few years ago... *sniff* i felt they are long gone in minds of other people)